michidays

        Hi and now i want to speak on  myself so don't read it if u really don't get this..
in fact i still love him or i really do hate him? My heart keep asking me and it is hurting. i'm in pain. my heart doesn't ready to it. How can i lost the love i loved the most? How can i go from this darkness? You know, i'm sorry i loved you wholeheartedly and why do not i just throw u. i'm regret this.back then, i'm afraid to hold, touch, and to be with you.. i'm afraid that you will get hurt. but now i'm the one who's in the pain. i'm afraid of being fallen in love again, all i do up to now just look at sky and wonder it how much i can reach those hopes. Will your shadow disappear, it's like a first time, i can't forget.. Please release me from this moment, i don't want to get known by you. i don't want to run but in fact i running from the reality of me, i hide my self, i hide my true feelings. I'm not crybaby but yourself give me more pain and pain i share and i received it. i've had enough, i guess this is final .